The year is 2001, i picked up a copy of final fantasy X game as i bought my ps2. When i play through game, I instantly become a follower of FF series(ff7 is where i started). i felt like i wanted to do something like this, the characters is beautifully done up and everything about it inspire me alot. In the future i wan 2 to create something beautiful that amaze people. My dream is to work at square-enix (*hope*)

Since then, i enrolled into a course that enable me to accomplish my dream slowly but surely. However, i am weak in art and struggle at 1st but i found another "door" which is 3d. I starting to learn the basic and hone my skill in tat area. At first I thought this could be where i could make my mark maybe as a 3d artist or something.

But as times goes by, i starting to feel less motivated and inspire. Perhap fatigue,hanging out,playing soccer etc.. causes this, or am i not not wired to be this way

I quote upon a article from a fellow cg artist

"Some things can help a person be more creative, but they won't help everyone--only those who already have the potential (and usually we all do, in various degrees and forms. Once again, it's rare for someone so passionate to completely suck at what they love so much, but it does happen--that's just one of the realities of life). "

"Are you REALLY passionate? Are you willing to make sacrifices in your life to become really good at something, even if it means taking time away from being a fan (playing games and watching DVD's instead of practicing), stop hanging out at the mall or getting baked with your friends, or spend all your time with your GF/BF?"

Soul searching time at a critical point of time...